Steam of blandness

Out of her uterus you go. I am a alive. I am a baby into this new world. Pure. Innocent. New. A baby. No experience. No language. No knowledge. Everything starting fresh from now on. So I slowly grow my baby hairs longer. Roll, sit, crawl, roll, stand, fall, walk, run, roll, run, roll into a depression as I gain awareness of my surroundings. Influences everywhere you look everything you hear is going to shape your character and future self, As soon as you start talking they already want more from you. It doesn't end until you really make it then but regardless their will always be that voice in the back of your head that has influenced you ever since you could understand your first language. But even if you understood in your way does that mean you really understand in their way. And even if you understand in their way do you want to fulfill what they want for you or what you want for yourself. You are nothing but a baby though right. They have to mold you into something that can conquer this evil world. So school starts and then you are forced to play sports and not just any sport you want but a sport that will help you get a scholarship in school...nope it doesn't matter if you enjoy that sport or are even good at it because you were convinced to practice a sport that will guarantee you easy college admission. Oh and your career? It better promise you a good salary. Get that degree as fast as you can and strap yourself down to that promised salary. And the minimum better be no less than $45,000 a year. Who cares if you are only 22 years old when you earn your promised bachelor's degree because that degree guarantees a successful life. Oh and successful just means a good salary it doesn't matter if you are a low level nurse in a government controlled hospital where your colleagues don't even know if you are a nurse or a patient because your eye bags are darker than the moon. And make sure that salary keeps getting higher. After two years of nursing and your continuation of school you better be a Nurse Practitioner at the age of 25 or you are irrelevant to this society. And no you cannot just work you have to be fit and post your healthy meals on your social media while catching up with all your old friends that completely forgot why they still associate themselves with you. Don't take it personally though. At least you got that promised salary your father has been begging you to continue school for. So you wake up. Go on a morning run, eat your avocado poached egg toast and bike to work and then you work your 12 hour shift only to bike back to your lonely apartment with your two fishes that you feed before yourself and then you continue to scroll and like and dream and envy and shake off the fact that you are not happy you will never be satisfied with this lifestyle. You go out occasionally with some friends or your roommates but the drinks taste watered down even though you still can't get it down your hatch properly without throwing it back up or embarrassing yourself flushed in red. And better yet you go to sleep alone or with some guy that gave you a drink or a hit of his joint. How long does this cycle repeat until you realized you want to be a wife already you want to start a family. Friends can leave anytime they wish. But a husband and kids is the life we are created for. Maybe now you aren't on your path to that salary your father has talked to you about since you were in High School, but he never talked about happiness or hereafter. This life on this Earth is too temporary that;s it;s almost funny how people take it too seriously, You must be successful, but not in your happy family, but in your singular income. What a life that would be. I'm 100000% sure Allah did not create these hands just to earn and spend for useless items. Wake up girlies. Life is so much more than just money and instant satisfaction and gratification. Seek out happiness for eternal life...not just today. Maybe you don't know from your obsessive consumerism culture you were born in....but patience can guide you out to a better life. Take care.